It’s been 1 year . . .
There are many things that bring you to my mind, but one thing is for sure.
I think of you every time I hear a song from Jeremy Camp
I remember the day you texted me the link to his song, Christ in Me.
In this obsession with
The things this world says make us happy
Can’t see the slaves we are
In all the searching all the grasping
Like we deserve much more
Than all these blessing we’re holding
So now I’m running free
Into an ocean of mercy unending
So come and empty me
So that it’s you I breathe
I want my life to be
Only Christ in me
So I will fix my eyes
‘Cause you’re my source of life
I need the world to see
That it’s Christ in me
That it’s Christ in me
Done with what holds me down
The things I once was chasing after
Throw off these heavy chains
That I have let become my master
So now I’m running free
Into an ocean of mercy unending . . .
God was rearranging your hearts priorities and you realized you wanted people to see Christ in your life!! That had become your #1 goal. That day you became my role model!! You did not let the worries of this life grab a hold of you!! That day you had been hospitalized for the umteenth time to fight another round of very aggressive leukemia. You were tired! Your body was worn out, but your mind was so in tuned to what God wanted to teach you. You were still so full of hope!!! Hope because the focus of your heart was changing!!
I am so proud of you – – you were physically suffering from so many different drugs and chemo. You were mentally suffering from not being able to be at home with your family, to love on them and provide for them. AND STILL you allowed God to teach you, to shift your focus off of yourself. You wanted to show the people around you how God gives unending peace in the midst of so much hurt. Being trapped in circumstances beyond your control.
I wish God would have let you live many more years to be able to show the world the amazing Christ you loved and talked about!! I honestly don’t know why God never answered my prayers for this miracle. I wanted it so bad for you!!! However I DO know that now you are “running free into an ocean of mercy . . . unending!!!”
I love you brother . . . I miss you . . . your courage . . . your strength . . . I know I will see you again . . . and probably talk your ear off!!! Haha! God has taught me SOOOO many things through your life . . . and through your death!! Your life was not lived in vain . . . your life made a difference!! I for one have been forever changed . . . Thank you!!!
